★ it is how much it hurts right in my heart.
ignore this post.//
I'm just ranting.
EOYS are finally over.
and I can heaved a sigh of relief.
many things happened.
I realise people come and people go.
people change and people remains
ultimately, you have to move on.
maybe things just aren't on my side now
and I just feel this little sensation to hold onto time.
time is never with us no matter how much you try to grab on
you tell yourself, "there's always enough time"
but that's only deceiving.
once there is an opportunity, never let it go.
because for all you know, you may come to regret it.
oh well, it's just words to describe.
why is it that life is so pathetic in a sense?
why is the world made such that everyone competes
why is it that everyone has this strong competitive mind.
no one knows. it's just how your brain works
it is good to have a little competition
this shows how people improve
but when competition gets over the line,
things tend to get harsh
everyone say that they are sinful.
but who are the ones that are willing to change?
everyone thinks about how they feel
have they really thought about how the others feel?
you may say
"I've done my very best. At least, I tried" (quoted)
yes. you tried.
but to that one person, maybe that isn't the best solution.
I believe
one cries for a purpose.
and I believe
that some people will cry for attention too
why are there attention-seekers living in this world?
is it so hard to try to keep to yourself?
or at least, try to confine it to only one person
I understand it's painful
the truth is always harsh
but aren't things supposed to work this way?
I say
crying is way of releasing your stress
cutting never is.
why cut yourself and make the people around you sad?
it hurts to see you hurting yourself.
let's see.
crying tells you how much pain you have been through
and how much you have tried to keep it.
IF only you cry when you feel you cannot take it anymore.
not for attention seeking purpose
it hurts to see the people around you crying.
and it hurts you even more that you cannot help
just what's wrong with the people in the world?
why can't everyone compromise?
is it so difficult to please everybody?
if everyone really hates you
then check your own attitude
people live to learn
and not learn to live.
it is just like how you eat to live
then you live to eat.
why can't everyone just think about how others feel?
you know it's gonna hurt you
then find the root of the problem
and solve it from there.
it is just so painful to see the person you love crying
how happy can you be?
why am I so selfish?
why didn't I learn to appreciate my life?
when have I learn to choose?
why is it everyone needs to leave at the moment I learn to appreciate them
why is it that everyone cries?
and I cannot do anything to help?
I remember being happy with them once.
what happened to them?
what really happened to me?
I guess it is me myself and I.
what can I do now?
I really don't know.
I just feel like hiding in a corner
and think it through
cry it out, my hearts out.
evonne.
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Evonne Tay 15 May; currently 15.
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